Because the ego is filled with fear; fear of failure, fear of success and most importantly fear of not being heard which ultimately means the ego has been squashed. So if the ego's basic survival is dependent on you heeding it's ill gotten advice, you know you have a tough challenge ahead. The ego will pull out voices from the past that may have affected you when you were more vulnerable. Adults and teachers who through no bad intention said things that stuck and had you doubt yourself up until today. This book helped me see that and even better, overcome it by flipping the negative talk into positive affirmations. By the time I reached chapter three, I sold two pieces of art in the same week! And that's without leaving the house! To overcome doubt is very empowering! But what just happened?
You have to ask yourself the hard questions. Why am I painting? Who am I painting for? Painting for yourself instead of to sell or to please for others will change the results . Commercialism, and capitalism has a nasty habit of creeping into our lives. Without passion, the joy is lost and it becomes work. A dirty word in the world of artistic expression and creativity. When I decided to just paint the things I loved, that love was somehow imbedded into my art and it's a vibe that gets picked up by others who view it. If it moved me, then it has the power to move others. And sometimes, they're moved enough to want to take it home. Often I love them so much myself that I'm quite happy to keep them for me! I find myself in a "que sera sera" mode, and that's a good thing because that underlying performance anxiety is eliminated.
My first sale was a simple pear on an eight inch square canvas. I'd painted it because I've always wanted to paint a pear. There was none of the artistic jargon (which sounds phoney at the best of times) to accompany the piece. I just loved the shape and simplicity. In other words "I thought it was pretty". In that moment I also knew when to stop because I felt right about this piece. My motivation was pure. The second was a Sunflower that I lovingly poured over for several weeks, while sharing my adventure on Facebook. It was sold before I'd even finished it! The interesting part was that I became aware of a different vibe emanating from me when I was "in the zone". It's a feeling that can be quite elusive in this world of being bombarded with negative news 24/7 which somehow serves to validate the doomsday attitude of the ego. Another helpful solution to unsticking oneself from the plague of self doubt and fear is to turn off the news. This means the internet too, especially social media. It's better to be still and listen to the deeper higher self that has only love for you.